I think I'll burn it down

lifting the hesitant match
smash its stone head against the grind
have the flame rise

carrying my idol to its rightful place
set my deity free of its flesh
and devour all thats left

I think i'll burn it down

prison walls
white washed and tinted blue
a single window without a view
though my door is breaking
it wont shatter through
so

I think i'll burn it down

bear myself down
all the silver in my posession
will meld me down
I want to see it burn
so I think i'll burn it down

in glorious flame
once the match is lit
my vision will be correct
my world alright
my life in scale
and a moment to late

in time of daffodils by E. E. Cummings


in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how

in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)

in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes

in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)

and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me

If by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream---and not make dreams your master;
If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son!





Mad Girl's Love Song by Sylvia Plath

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

Getting ready for the concert was an event in itself. Choosing the clothes, digging for make up and hunting for the right look. *Sigh* It was fun. Demonika and the Darklings was great instrumentally, the singing was okay, the belley dancer odd. Igor Spectre was hilarious. The bassist was kinda weird but I don't mind that in the slightest bit! Plus their music was pretty good too. Next was Voltaire. Which could not have been better. He was amazing. Exactly what you would expect and more. ^____^ The read fun was Dani and I made a break for the bathroom at the end of the concert and noticed a huge crowd at the merch table when we were leaving. The crowd was huge but we managed to get in a little, all I could see was a top hat in the center of the crowd. Voltaire was siging away and taking pictures with his beloved fans. He stepped out of the crowd for a bit and when he went back in Dani and me followed him back in. We managed to get to the front of the crowd. I remember hear "Camielle? Want me to sign your breasts?" She turned him down which was probably why he was so excited when Dani asked him to sign hers. I however got him to sign his newest CD for me, which I will treasure. And managed to snag a picture with him, Dani snagged one too. Voltaire was really nice and funny. ^____^ I love going to concerts. Next, Emily Autumn. ^___^

► North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)

[x] You were bullied a lot in your childhood.
[x] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
[ ] You're very happy-go-lucky. [every now and then]
[x] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies.
[ ] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up.
[x] You're a good artist.
[x] You can be clumsy at times.
[x] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something.
[ ] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!".
[ ] You would surrender in a war situation.
(6/10)

► Germany (Ludwig)

[x] You're very stoic and serious
[ ] Sausages are your favourite foods.
[x] You like to walk dogs/your dog.
[x] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[ ] You love rules and think they should always be followed to a T.
[x] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules. [when i profit from them]
[ ] You work very hard.
[x] Your alone time is your 'happy time'. [sometimes]
[ ] You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people.
[x] You've had issues with money once or twice.
(5/10)

► Japan (Kiku Honda)

[x] You're very mature.
[ ] You think everything over before saying it.
[x] You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one.
[x] You isolated yourself during childhood.
[ ] You became very successful in a short amount of time..
[ ] You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world
[x] You can seem cold/aloof to other people.
[x] You're good at practical tasks.
[x] You need time to adjust to new people.
(6/10)

► United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)

[x] You love hamburgers.
[ ] You think you're awesome.
[ ] You love to invent things.
[x] You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films..
[ ] You can seem to be very brash to other people
[ ] You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business. [my business is boring! so i meddle haha]
[ ] You're terrified of ghosts.
[ ] You know aliens exist.
[ ] You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time.
[x] You wear glasses.
(3/10)

►United Kingdom (Arthur Kirkland)

[x] You like tea.
[ ] You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid.
[x] You're very sarcastic and cynical.
[ ] Your cooking is awful.
[x] You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
[ ] ...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
[ ] You have tried doing black magic before.
[ ] You get drunk quite easily.
[ ] When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy.
[ ] You're good at embroidery.
(3/10)

► France (Francis Bonnefoy)

[x] You're very affectionate.
[x] You think you have a great fashion sense.
[x] You like wine.
[ ] You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears.
[x] You love red roses.
[ ] When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women.
[ ] You're very proud of yourself.
[x] You love culture and the arts.
[ ] You're very flamboyant.
[x] You say you're a gourmet.
(5/10)

► Russia (Ivan Braginski)

[x] You had a very sad childhood.
[ ] You're very tall.
[x] You have a tendency to switch between personalities.
[ ] You wear a scarf all the time.
[x] You love sunflowers.
[ ] You love vodka.
[ ] You can seem intimidating to other people.
[x] You're very strong.
[ ] You have a big nose .
[ ] You have a strange laugh that can scare people.
(3/10)

► China (Wong Yao)

[x] You're very mature
[x] You're very superstitious
[ ] You're very religious
[x] You love pandas
[x] You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
[x] You love Hello Kitty {<333}
[ ] You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever, but are never taken seriously.
[ ] You work hard
[ ] You're good at drawing
[x] You like sweets
(6/10)

► Austria (Roderich Edelstein)

[x] You are very well-raised.
[x] You're polite.
[x] You love classical music.
[x] You like cake.
[ ] You have a mole on your face.
[x] You dedicate your time to your hobbies rather than what needs to be done right away.
[ ] You are a virtuoso/play very well on at least one instrument.
[ ] You've composed music before.
[x] You tend to call people 'morons'.
[ ] You wear glasses.
(6/10)

► Canada (Matthew Williams)

[x] You're often ignored by people.
[x] You look younger than you actually are.
[ ] You love hockey.
[x] You love polar bears.
[x] You hate fighting.
[ ] You have one strand of curly hair, like Italy.
[ ] You often get mistaken for someone else.
[x] You feel under-appreciated.
[ ] You're bilingual.
[ ] You always carry a bear with you.
(5/10)

► Cuba

[ ] You smoke.
[ ] You're very physically strong.
[ ] You've won a lot of fist-fights.
[ ] In your social circle, there are two brothers - you get along with one, but not with the other.
[x] You have very strong emotions about a variety of topics.
[ ] You like hot weather.
[x] You can be very friendly from time to time.
[ ] You look very tough on the outside.
[ ] You make a very nice role-model.
[ ] You don't let people get a word in edgeways.
(2/10)

► Hungary (Erszebet Hédeváry)

[x] You have a potty-mouth.
[ ] You like to wear flowers in your hair.
[ ] You used to be a very tough kid..
[x] You're very reliable.
[x] It's better to have you as a friend rather than an enemy.
[x] You're very faithful.
[ ] Your speech and mannerisms can be considered very unladylike.
[x] You and your best friend go together like chalk and cheese.
[x] You are graceful one moment and grinning like a maniac the next.
[x] If someone yells that yaoi is going on somewhere, you will drop everything to run off to go and see it.
(8/10)

► Lithuania (Toris Lorinaitis)

[x] You're very loyal.
[x] You feel like your best friend drags you around a lot, but you both have a great time together.
[x] You're very serious.
[x] You have a lot of patience.
[x] You think too much about philosophical stuff.
[x] You get depressed when questioning the point of existing/the universe, etc.
[x] You're not very confident.
[ ] You were quite rebellious as a child.
[ ] People tend to walk all over you.
[x] You're a born worrier.
(8/10)

► Poland (Feliks Lucasiewocz)

[ ] You're very flamboyant.
[x] You're quite hyperactive.
[x] You can be quite goofy.
[ ] When you're depressed, you tend to rise out of it like a phoenix.
[x] You're very wary of strangers.
[x] It takes you ages to come out of your shell.
[x] However, when you're used to someone, you're very chatty.
[x] You're very forceful and stand at one end of the argument when it comes to your opinions.
[x] You love pansies and corn-poppies.
[x] You get up to lots of crazy antics.
(8/10)

► Prussia (Gilbert Weillschmidt)

[ ] You're quite mean-spirited.
[ ] You're a bit of a hooligan.
[x] You're very loyal.
[ ] You're very good at tactics.
[ ] You hate Russia.
[ ] You love to fight people.
[ ] You can avoid marriages quite well
[x] You're not always taken seriously.
[ ] You like drinking.
[x] You want to become stronger.
(3/10)

After visiting my cousins for three and half hours I should feel okay, or happy even pleased. Not hating my father for never realizing that everytime we visit I get to spend hours realizing I'm an outcast to people I'm blood related to. When my cousins go somewhere they all go together take pictures and tell my parents about it later. Have I ever gone with them? No. I've never gone anywhere with them without my parents wthere. That was only twice to LA to go shopping.

I hate my dad for taking me over there for hours at time, for taking me for entire nights, even when I have school the next morning or if i just came from school. For making me feel like such a outcast that I wind up angry and crying when I get home. I especially hate for him for never realizing this for as long as I have alive. Even with my mother giving him hints or saying "she's pissed". He doesn't ask me why I'm mad he doesn't try to make me talk to him. He just doesn't care that his youngest daughter "the one more" he asked for is upset and hurt. And I'm angry at my mom for never doing anything about it. So I am angry. So when I'm eighteen or applying for colleges, which ever comes first, I'm going to live in a dorm. At least that way if I don't have any friends it'll be because I have poor social skills, not because my Dad never tried to do anything about it.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
Not at all

02) What was your dream growing up?
To be a librarian, to read and write books forever.

03) What talent do you wish you had?
Psychic. Maybe I'd be good with tarot cards.

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Coffee. Horray for caffeine, i'm an addict you know.

05) Favorite vegetable?
Steamed brocoli, by itself actually. No cheese or anything.

06) What was the last book you read?
Currently, American Gods by Neil Gaiman, never have I been so confused, entranced and in love before.

07) What zodiac sign are you?
Pisces

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A piercing on each ear, I'm terribly afraid of needles so that maybe the only piercing to ever find their way onto my virgin skin.

09) Worst Habit?
Hiding inside myself. I'm way too self-conscious, day dream-y and paranoid to ever really step out of my shell.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
Yes, I would love the company.

11) What is your favorite sport?
Tennis. I get the point if I hit my opponet. That greatly amuses me.

12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
Pessimistic mostly, towards anyone else I'm annoyingly optimistic.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Point out that the elevator music is mundane, and the build up that pushes stressed out people into becoming homicidal maniacs.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Realizng how deep the stab mark my "best friend" left was, and watching a gushing wound become a hardned and unforgiving scar.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
I think I have insomia.

16) Do you have any pets?
My brother's dog, Rocky Balboa Verdin. The love of my life, and the spawn of satan.

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
Wanna watch a movie? I'll get the popcorn.

18) What was your first impression of me?
I try not to look to deep into first impressions, they can be wildy inaccurate and misleading.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Scary. Clowns are evil, I can't sleep because I think they're going to eat me. Like a happy meal.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
Almost everything. But I'll stick to what I've got I guess, plastic surgery freaks me out.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
More than likeley partner, it would take something wildly serious to make me be a conscience.

22) What color eyes do you have?
Hazel. Ish.

23) Ever been arrested?
Nope. Thank god.

24) Bottle or can soda?
I like sodas in glass bottles. Hecho in Mexico.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
7,000 for college, the other three from my mom and dad.

27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
Somewhere cozy, under my covers to the dollar store at Burbank. I like places.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes, no matter how much it bothers me.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Read books, Listen to music and Watch movies.

30) Do you swear a lot?
Yes I do, I'm trying to cut down though.

31) Biggest pet peeve?
My pet peeve is that scratchy noise on metal or chalk boards. It makes me feel homicidal, that and hypocracy.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
"Curious"

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Romance is the blood that flows through my silver veins, and the rose colored blush upon my cheeks.

34) Favourite and least favourite food?
Buritos. Peach-Flavored (anything actually) oatmeal

35) Do you believe in God?
I have a limited belief in God, but I have labeled myself a Deist.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
I think I just did.......